Five Months [After it all you’re still with me]

I want to start off by saying i love you. thank for for putting up with me. after all we have gone though. it’s amazing how you’re still with me. i feel bless you gave me another chance. and i told myself i’ll never do anything to mess up this romance.
i know from time to time i still tick you off. but you still have the heart to love me. which is odd. i never wanted to feel like i lost you. i did and i never want to feel like that again. i’m doing everything in my power to never hurt you again. i’ll be your umbrella when it starts to rain.
we almost made it to half a year which is pretty rare. because i’m a jackass but in the morning youre still there. i love you with all my heart and soul. i’ll never let you fall again because youre mine to hold. i know it will take time for you to heal. but know that i’m yours forever i’ll never be who i was when i hurt you. know that from now on i’ll be holding you because my love for you is real. i love you CG and it will never change. one day we’ll be together and i’ll always be your man.

why am i so stupid..

i know i caused many pain in your life.. but i’m trying my best to show you i’m doing better.. it may take a while for you to trust me again.. but can you assure me you still love me? sometimes i wonder would it be better if i was a mute? i should stop speaking, what is coming out of my mind sometimes.. it causes us to fight.. and it makes us both sad.. and makes me sad im the one causing it.. sometimes i wonder if you would be better off without a piece of shit of a guy like me.. i am trying my best to fight for you and keep you in my life.. but i’m only causing more anger in you.. being me.. as the tears fall from my face of what we are becoming.. i still love you but it hurts you being with me.. you knew apart of me no one ever even got close enough to see or hear of.. and now that youre in you can’t leave me or a part of me will be lost forever.. i know i let you fall a few times and now i’m picking up the pieces i broke.. time seems to shorten when you seem to get easily mad at me.. i dont want to believe this.. because i dont want to lose you. i seem to fuck up every night we talk.. i say the wrong stuff or it seems my mind says stuff you didn’t even say. and it angers you more madly.. i’m sorry.. for being the dumbass i am. im trying.. i really am.. please give me time and i promise i’ll be worth it?

I’m sorry I really am. (sorry if its random.. my mind is alksdj13u123iqjdlkasjd)

it’s raining again deep inside your heart. and i apologize for letting you stand under the rain without an umbrella.. why didn’t i see why the things i’ve done was hurting you and now you are ready to walk away as i’m holding on your hands.. i don’t want to let go.. baby please don’t go.. i need you always in my life.. and the thought of you not in it just hurts the most.. i know it’s a long way for us to be where we once were.. but i’m willing to show you and rebuild anything that i burnt down.. i dont want to live a life knowing i lost the best thing in my life.. i know it will take a long time for me to make things right but i want to use all my time to show you im willing to keep you forever than anything else.. you mean everything to me.. and i’m sorry for doing what i did.. i should of known yeah im stupid.. please don’t go without you i’m not that strong.. youre the love that means the most and i don’t want to lose it. i’m hanging on for dear life.. don’t let go. please i love you with all my heart.. always was you.

Four Months [All in all]

we been through a lot these past few months. and we been at our weakest..
we seem to love each other a lot to try again and again. even through all the pain and tears that fall from our faces. i still want years and years with you and try to make it each day with you in different places. i know i’m tough to handle and sometimes i just close up.. but you been with me through it all and it’s amazing how much you can put up, with.  because you give me this feeling inside my heart where i haven’t felt in so long. it makes me calm and i havent been like that in forever. i just want to love you always even when the sky is grey. hold you in my arms when the tornado tries to blow us away. i’m sorry for being such a pain in the ass. but when you come back to smile at me. i know we will always last. i love you girl please believe. i’ll never leave your side. you are everything i ever needed and that isn’t a lie. dont let me wake up because you are a beautiful dream.

Three Months [i’ll do my best to make it up to you]

after the storm has pasted
it’s good to hear you laugh.
honestly i thought i would of lost you
and i wouldnt do anything that would of cost you.
it’s good to see your smile after all that has been done
and i’m glad you still love me, youre still always my number one.
i dont think i want a scare like the one we just had
because honestly.. i would of been lost my mind if you became apart of my past.
i know i’ll never do anything to make you hurt the way i did..
i love you and i honestly do. i know it will take some time for us to heal
but know i’m doing my best to make up for what i did
you’re the only one in my dreams that is really real.
i guess i dodged a bullet and lets not plays with guns
because you might get mad at me and shoot me in the foot o.o
i love you i truly do. because there’s no me without you.
happy anniversary and many more to come.
know deep down in your heart you’re always number one.

Dad comes home drunk and mad, he pulls out a gun and shoots his wife and turns to the gun himself and pulls the trigger. The little girl sits behind a couch crying. The police came and took the little girl to a new family, and she went to her first Sunday school at church. She walks past the building and sees a picture of Jesus on the cross. The little girl then ask’s the teacher “How did that man get off the cross?” the Teacher replied “He never did” then the little girl argued “Yes he did. Because the night that my mommy and daddy died he sat next to me behind the couch, telling me everything was going to be alright”. 66% of you won’t post this, But remember what the bible say’s “Deny me in front of your friends and i shall Deny you in front of my father”. So re-post this, remember God saw you read this

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February 14 “Day of Love”

days of love and sharing hearts
i was alone really broken apart.
and as this day came i was only sad.
just reminiscing the things i once had.
i really did miss the things that kept my warm.
so i told myself I’ll find my true love, and that i sworn.
and a few years past. i didn’t give up and our love was born.
i know they said good things come to those who wait.
i thought i was an exception because i waited for the longest time.
and the way you came into my life maybe it was fate?
whatever it was it didn’t matter because now you’re mine.
i use to think true love died in the 90s with all the good things
but you changed my mind on love and you gave it reasons.
the way you smile you can light up a whole room.
you’re heart is so big no need for a 2x zoom.
haha, my rhyme is wack but i can’t think with you in my mind.
maybe i’m truly in love and my lost for words is a sign.
i know sometimes i tend to lose my temper
and i would sometimes cross the line.
but you should know my love wouldn’t be cold like december.
i’ll cherish you forever because you’ll always be mine.
cupid struck me multiple times with his gun
and my eyes are full with hearts
my soul is in love because you’re the one.
i love you and i’ll always will.

Two Months [Getting Better]

some days it’s so sunny, and others where it’s only pouring
but you’ll always be my baby, without you i’m nothing.
it’s been awhile since the last time i saw your pretty face.
don’t lose faith. i’ll be back some day.
all my life i was searching for love i thought didn’t exist.
until i met you. your beauty inside and out i couldnt resist.
i was nothing before not a soul that should be saved, but you insisted.
i love you and each day it will never be the same.
but know my love for you isn’t like the moon, it will never change.
we been through a lot, but know i’ll be the better man
i’ll hold you tight and do my best to make things right.
even jump off the highest building to catch a shooting star.
and maybe if i’m lucky enough you’ll be there with open arms.
i dont fear what tomorrow brings because youre there with me.
i can say it’s been awhile since the last time someone loved me.
so baby, i’ll do my best to not disappoint you.
because i know for deep down i’ll always love you.